Wilting Hand & Polkadots

Today is the 15th day of outreach in Duncraig (North Perth) and things have been pretty much above awesome. I'm eating more than I need to, getting my skin nice and brown more than the average healthy level, and just doing whatever needs to be done. The Pastor that we're staying with has been very accommodating. We have pudding nights almost every night. When people say that you lose weight on outreach, they are really just having a laugh because that is very untrue. However, I am not complaining. We get lots of Slovakian delicacies because the Pastor and his family, whom we're staying with, are originally from there. Praise God for food and culture!

Apart from eating and having lots of fun. The YWAM team and I have been hitting the streets and beaches of North Perth to tell people about how awesome they are and how awesome it is that God thinks of them as awesome people. It's been quite nerve wrecking at times, but people are a lot more open that I thought. I've learned a lot about just being confident in Christ and just going for it. After all, we have an amazing God and it'll be a waste if we didn't share that with anyone.

So, I thought I'd share a story about one of the incidences I had on the streets telling people about God:

It was a really really hot thursday afternoon, and I was with my pair buddy sitting on the bench waiting on God to see what He wanted to say to us. In my mind, I was semi frustrated at myself and God for being confused as to why I was lacking intimacy in my relationship with Him and the fact that I wasn't sure whether I could hear him during the previous days of walking around and talking to people. I was confused and desperate. I really wanted to feel God again and I just felt that I was somehow not getting enough of Him. So I asked God out loud, "Okay God, if there is anything you want to speak to us now about a specific person to talk to, then tell me now because I don't know what I'm doing, and I really want you to speak to me." I felt a sense of doubt up to that point, but I didn't want to. I know in my heart that God is good and that He does speak, but there were many times where I just lacked the faith. It's amazing how easily your faith can be snatched away when you're just going through the motions.

But God doesn't get sick or tired of reminding us that He is awesome and that He sees you as awesome.

So I waited a little. And then two random things came into my mind. It was, "Wilting hand and polkadots". I didn't think much of it. Thought I was just making it up again. So my partner and I stood up from the bench and started walking around with those things in our minds.

After a few minutes, we walked pass a shop called, "Good Sammys". In the display, I saw a polkadot dress on the mannequin and I thought, "Geez. Wow, look...polkadots.right" and then I moved on. But then as we walked pass the shop, I felt that we somehow should go and check it out. So we turned around and walked into the shop and as soon as I open the door, the first thing I noticed was a woman holding her arm and her hand was in a wilted position. So, being me, i just thought that was a little coincidental, weird and tried to rationalise the whole situation. So my partner and I were just walking around in the shop, and I couldn't stop looking at this woman. I felt that I had to somehow approach her and say something to her. But what? What should I say? Am I really supposed to go and talk to her? Is her hand really disabled or what? This woman was a clerk in the shop and she was disabled somehow and I just knew that God was pursuing her but I was scared and freaking out. So I ran over to my partner and told him what was going through my mind. So we prayed and asked God for a confirmation if this was the woman that we were supposed to go talk to. We said, "Ok God, this woman looks pretty busy at the till and we don't wanna interrupt her duties but if we're supposed to talk to this woman, let her walk away from the till and free her from duties somehow." and then a few minutes later, she walks away from the till and kinda stands around. So then I knew that was God, and so I freak out even more because I'm nervous and I don't even knw what to say because I'm just looking at the whole shop and there are loads of people around, everything just seemed chaotic.

So my partner tells me that we should maybe step out of the shop for a while. So we come out of the shop and I feel really tense, but I know that we still have to go and talk to the woman. So we sit down and ask God, "What should we say. We know we're suppose to encourage her but what and how?" and then after a few moments. A bible verse pops into my mind and I have not much of an idea of what that verse says. It was Isiah 53:3-5 and it talks about how Jesus heals and how all our sin and shame has been put on Him and we're set free because of this. And immediately I feel encouraged and pumped.

We go back into the shop, and by now there are hardly any people around and the woman is not doing anything. So we approach her and tell her that we feel that God wants us to go and talk to her. We tell her what we just went through and she seems pretty startled but then she says, "It's good to know that there are people who know God and love Him" and it was such a relief because she knew who God was and His love for her. So it was a lot easier to talk to her and we prayed for her and told her that Jesus was her healer and after that, her face just lit up and that just brought great satisfaction and peace to my heart.

I'm pretty sure that God wanted us to encourage her and to encourage me too. After telling God that I was frustrated, He proved that I could actually hear Him by taking control of the whole situation and leading me to this woman- this woman who was disabled but had a God who loved her and saw her as His immensely precious daughter and she needed to hear it.

We all need to be reminded that God is there and that's why He goes out of His way to remind us because He knows that it's so easy for us to forget because it's difficult. But He still uses us to do amazing things despite how messed up we feel and despite us having a lack of faith in Him.



Outreach really has been about putting people- people I know and people I don't know above myself. It's about trying to love others in a way that Jesus did so that people will know who Jesus is. It's about giving the right view of God to people who have had the wrong view of God. Our God is huge. I fail to understand how huge He is sometimes. We limit God to how much our head holds. There is so much more to Him than we think. I'm still learning and everyday is a challenge but I'm so glad that God loves me unconditionally and He's not gonna give up on me- or on anybody.

He's pursuing you. More than you know.

Go God.

This is our God

This week, I've had to wrap my head around this - How big is God?
I believe that God is big enough because of His nature- He's powerful, eternal, omnipotent, omnipresent, etc. But how big is big?

I often like to think that I'm significant on this planet and I don't trust that God is big enough and good enough for me to live a life in awe of Him.

Thank God for science, because now we can get a glimpse of how big God is.

In the bible, Isaiah speaks about how epicly big God is- "Who has measured the waters of the earth in the hollow of His hand, measured heaven with a span...?" (isaiah 40:12) Okay, i can't even hold 20 marshmallows in my mouth...And here is God, holding the universe in his hand- ONE hand) and His love for us as as high as the heavens too..WHAT? are you kidding me? HOW? WHAT? WHY??..

So much for thinking I'm important. I'm pretty much an invisible spec in His hand.

Last weekend, I wanted to runaway, Hide away..leave. Why? Because I thought I knew better. Because I thought I knew my plans were greater than His. I just want to slap myself silly. He could crush me by just placing his eyelash on me..not even that. it's unimaginable how insignificant we are, yet He asked His son to die for me.WHAT?! why?! Because we were made to appreciate and experience the vastness and the goodness of Him. Sadly, we didn't want it. lame.

The last couple of days, I decided to trust that God was good enough and big enough..our school saw $2500+ come in an hour for my school friend's course fees. God was testing me on whether I actually meant what I said which was "I'll give everything to You, because everything I have is Yours"..So, conclusion is that don't tell God you'll do something if you don't mean it, cos He takes your word for it. I felt God said to give up 2 things i dearly loved without even knowing that the ppl i gave those thing to were asking God for it. And there's more..God wanted me to give $200 to someone, and so I did (was very reluctant) but then 2hours later, i get a phone call from someone saying that he wanted to give me $200. that happened all in one day. I won't go on about all the other days where God poured out His goodness on me and my friends around me. It'll blow your mind. I don't expect God to pour out His goodness on me, but He does and He can cos He's HUGE. if He called the universe to be, I'm certain He has big and amazing plans for me as I can already see it being written right here, right now..and I can already see it coming into place..very slowly.

If only my mind could grasp how good He is and how big he is all the time. I can only handle so much for a day. I know that I'm going to forget all this next week or something, but thank goodness that God is patient and He loves reminding us How awesome He is.

"Why, the nations are but a drop in a bucket, a mere smudge on a window. Watch him sweep up the islands like so much dust off the floor! There aren't enough trees in Lebanon nor enough animals in those vast forests to furnish adequate fuel and offerings for his worship. All the nations add up to simply nothing before him-- less than nothing is more like it. A minus.
So who even comes close to being like God? To whom or what can you compare him?
Don't you know anything? Haven't you been listening? GOD doesn't come and go. God lasts. He's Creator of all you can see or imagine. He doesn't get tired out, doesn't pause to catch his breath. And he knows everything, inside and out." (Isaiah 40)

God's love is meteoric, his loyalty astronomic,
His purpose titanic, his verdicts oceanic. Yet in his largeness nothing gets lost; Not a man, not a mouse, slips through the cracks. (Psalm 36:5-6)

"This is how much God loved the world: He gave his Son, his one and only Son. And this is why: so that no one need be destroyed; by believing in him, anyone can have a whole and lasting life.
God didn't go to all the trouble of sending his Son merely to point an accusing finger, telling the world how bad it was. He came to help, to put the world right again." (John 3:16-17)


So, next time you want to know how huge God is and how much He loves us despite how small and insignificant we really are, look at yourself, your friends, your family..there is light in you. We're all made to love and receive love. It was part of God's plan in the beginning.

His plans are huge for everyone single person on this planet. It's up to you to believe it.

check this link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x1w8hKTJ2Co&feature=related



We've almost finished learning an itsty bitsy bit about God and His heart for everyone single person on this planet, and so we're going out to Perth City and Mexico City In January 2010 to proclaim just that- that God is big enough and good enough. Crazy? heck yeah! Most people probably think we're on crack, but that just pumps us up even more. We're just gonna love everyone silly.haha.

If God is for us, who can be againt us? Bring it.

The Lost Children

The Felt Child- Half of the world's population is CHILDREN
The Soldier- is representative of the 300,000 children actively fighting in wars
The Bandaid- represents the 35,000 children who die each day from preventable diseases
Party Popper- this past year, the lives of 510,000 children were extinguished by AIDS (ages 0-14)
The Spoon- is symbolic of the 200 million children under 15 years of age who suffer from chronic hunger
The Foam Letter- speak for the 121 million primary school aged children who are not attending school
The Coin- is the 674 million children that live in absolute poverty
The Heart- represent the 1.2million children being trafficked into the sex trade annually
The Bottle- each year, 3.3million babies are stillborn, 4 million die within 28 days of being born and a further 6.6million children die before their 5th birthday

The Cross- represents the hope and love of Jesus

Another Wonderful Week.

"Have I not told you? Be strong and courageous; do not be afraid or dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go." (Joshua 1)

Last week started with God leading me to read the book of Joshua. I read the verse above and thought, "yeah I know this, I've read this like a million times. Of course I know this." Little did I realise that this verse would be the theme of my week in which God was just adding a little bit more to the bigger picture of knowing more about who He is.

To put it in short, I need to be constantly reminded about who God is and how much He just wants to pour out His goodness and love to me everyday of my life. Since being here, I've been encouraged by friends here and other random people that God sees me as someone as strong and courageous- basically everything I don't see myself as. I'm scared of everything. Timid and inferior. One day, a friend came up to me and said, "God wanted me to tell you that you shouldn't limit yourself as that means you limit Him. Don't put Him in a box." It took me a while for that to sink in, and when it did, I just realised that God was again taking the first step to reach out to me. Just thinking about that and His death on the cross made me realise how much He risked to reach out to me.

I was gutted. I don't ever believe that I can be used in a mighty way and I lack much confidence. But here was God just telling me through people showing me His faithfulness and reminding me about His love. I was bursting with tears in class on thursday just thinking about the cross that I just couldn't contain as I felt God saying to me, "This is my love for You. Though you don't believe in me, I've put you on random people's minds to try and tell you that I love you." I walked back to my room after I had calmed down and I just stood there and a friend asked if I was okay. I looked up, paused and then replied still trying to figure things out in my mind, "God is just...awesome. I don't deserve it.." and all of a sudden I just fell to the floor and burst out in tears that I just couldnt control. I didn't really know what was happening but all I knew was that I was just experiencing God's love which was just cutting me to the heart in a way that was just so strong that I had to lie down.

I felt so stupid for saying that I want to know God and that I understand Him and what Jesus had done for me. But I think we all need to be constantly reminded that it's not just about what we know or what we say, but we need the revelations from God that keep us going. Every week I'm going through a cycle of trying not to be selfish and give God everything. It's so painful and it seems lame to even do something you don't normally do but I've come to find that just being bold and doing something God wants you to do, even though you would never do it, feels awesome once you've obeyed. But I'm beginning to realise that that's exactly what life with God is all about. Just relying on Him and not myself. I've done things that I never thought I could do or would never think twice about doing. For example, I had to give a talk about God's love this week and I had no idea what I was going to say till I was there at that moment talking. I was nervous, terrified and I'm not a public speaker at all. However, I was saying things I had never thought about and I could really just feel God speaking through me. It was amazing.

So yeah, learning lots about just trusting God even though in my little mind can't comprehend how things could work out. And it feels good cos I'm working through living up to a potential I thought I never could achieve but all things are possible through Him.

We're never meant to walk this life alone, to strive for something great for ourselves. It's humanly impossible to a live a life that God wants us to live. Which is why we're supposed to ask Him for help. He made the universe, I'm certain He will see me through.

One life to live. I'm not gonna live it in my little bubble. Life is too short to live for things that will pass away.




Oh and the week ended with a weekend full of free cotton candy making the beach and just awesome YWAM family bonding. I love how even though all my friends here are from everywhere, we still get along well and when there is tension, we talk it out, we try to love each other. Genuine relationships built on a strong foundation bonded by God's love for all of us - it will never be broken.

"Oh, you so holy"

Holiness is another word in the pool of Christian jargon.

Do we actually know what it means?

When we see people going to church, praying or just talking about God, we tend to say to them, "Ooo, you so holy" Or even as Christians, when we do lotsa "good stuff" and go to church and things that we like to think of ourselves as "being a good Christian" and therefore being holy in these acts. However, holiness to us often seems completely unachievable and way too out of our reach as we're human and bla bla bla.

Holiness is knowing God and His truths and living in what has already been revealed to you. If we truly know who God is- even if we know just a little about Him (cos we'll never know enough of who He is) and if that truly renews our mind, that is holiness. We're all holy if we choose to want to know Him. So you may say that being Holy is only for "strong/super christians" and not for me, I'm just fine where I am. You're wrong. Cos you are called to be holy. It's the very nature of who we are. We were created to know God. to be searching for something more, to love, to feel, etc. The ability to know Him is already given to us.

You're closer to God than you think. You're made in His image. You already have godly attributes.

You are His child.

God loves you this much

In the beginning, God. [Genesis 1:1]

Before the world was created, you. [Ephesians 1:4-6]

The world was created for you.

God intended for us to have a perfect relationship with Him, for you.

We have free will (No, we're not robots) and therefore have choice to love and know Him in return. A risk He wanted to take, for you.

He made you in His image. [Genesis 1:27] We all have God-given gifts that portray who He is. E.g. Relationship, Environmental responsibility, Marriage, Children, Education, Health, Home, Work, Creativity, Rest, etc. [1 Corinthians 12 + 14]

We chose to live for ourselves and rejected Him, but God still sent His only Son to die for us. [Romans 5:8]

God is love. He loves you. No matter what.


There is so much to God that I don't know. I've only really got a drop of the ocean of the fullness of God. But I've come to see that God is a good God. So often, I and a lot of people have a distorted view of God. We see Him as a God who just wants to punish and condemn us for the sin in our lives and therefore, He is a God of Law and rules. But if we see Him in this way, we've completely missed the idea of who He really is. God never wanted to see us go through pain, to suffer, to go through death. Before the world began, he chose you and me to be His children. To have a complete relationship full of goodness and love that you and I could not imagine. But we have the freedom to decide. To make our own choices. That is love. When you love someone, you risk being rejected.

We have a God who loves us. A love that cannot separate us from Him. You may not love Him back. But know that even though you don't, He sees you as precious.



I love God and I love people. But there will be countless times where I'll mess up and someone would point that out but that won't stop me from not loving Him or not reaching out to people. We make mistakes, but we learn from them. I'm sorry for the way I distorted your view of God in the past. I'm sorry for not portraying God's nature and character. I want to make a change. I will make a change.

What is the best way of communication? Love. God is love.

1 Corinthians 13

"1 If I speak with human eloquence and angelic ecstasy but don't love, I'm nothing but the creaking of a rusty gate. 2If I speak God's Word with power, revealing all his mysteries and making everything plain as day, and if I have faith that says to a mountain, "Jump," and it jumps, but I don't love, I'm nothing. 3-7If I give everything I own to the poor and even go to the stake to be burned as a martyr, but I don't love, I've gotten nowhere. So, no matter what I say, what I believe, and what I do, I'm bankrupt without love.

Love never gives up.
Love cares more for others than for self.
Love doesn't want what it doesn't have.
Love doesn't strut,
Doesn't have a swelled head,
Doesn't force itself on others,
Isn't always "me first,"
Doesn't fly off the handle,
Doesn't keep score of the sins of others,
Doesn't revel when others grovel,
Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth,
Puts up with anything,
Trusts God always,
Always looks for the best,
Never looks back,
But keeps going to the end.

8-10Love never dies. Inspired speech will be over some day; praying in tongues will end; understanding will reach its limit. We know only a portion of the truth, and what we say about God is always incomplete. But when the Complete arrives, our incompletes will be canceled.

11When I was an infant at my mother's breast, I gurgled and cooed like any infant. When I grew up, I left those infant ways for good.

12We don't yet see things clearly. We're squinting in a fog, peering through a mist. But it won't be long before the weather clears and the sun shines bright! We'll see it all then, see it all as clearly as God sees us, knowing him directly just as he knows us!

13But for right now, until that completeness, we have three things to do to lead us toward that consummation: Trust steadily in God, hope unswervingly, love extravagantly. And the best of the three is love."

Before I sleep...I thought I'd rhyme.

I haven't posted anything in a while so I thought I update y'all on what's going on here on base down under...

Full house in the dorm,
2 more nations represent,
We're all still tight,
Getting louder by the night.

It's been busy, it's been trying,
Sometimes I feel like dying,
Not really, that was a little OTT
But everyday's a challenge in breaking me.

In my sorrow, I rejoice
Instead of sulking- that's my choice.
God is love, that's all I need.
No really, That is really all I need.

It's weird how you know things,
Just in your head,
But when something cool/bad happens,
You acknowledge how real God really is and that's just the coolest feeling in the world!

Okay that last verse didn't rhyme,
But my vocab sucks especially at this time,
It's late and it's gonna be busy this week
So I'm nearing the end of my geek streak.

Thus to sum up the past few days,
Well there is so much to say,
But what I really learned was
How to battle each moment by taking a pause,
In between your decisions that you're going to make,
Cos when you choose to make
A choice that goes opposite what you usually do,
It actually works best for me and those around too.



Okay, I just wanna also shout out all the amazing things happened in the past week, thanks to God:
1. I unexpectedly got back the exact amount of cash that I donated 2 weeks ago from a wonderful someone. I thought it was pretty awesome cos I was a little unsure as to whether I was supposed to donate that much. But now, I have as much as I had before! So Yay for a bit of money for mexico!

2. Told my testimony and apologized for a lotta things I did back in the day to a loved one and it went so well, I can't believe how well it went! Firstly, I knew what to say and I usually don't. Secondly, that person reacted in a way totally opposite to what I thought. So thanks to God for the confidence and words to say (Proverbs3) and the people who prayed for me.

3. Felt pretty much on the down low a couple of times but whenever I felt a certain way, God would send random people to tell me what I really needed to hear at the right times and therefore, I made better choices and ended up on a high rather than a lower low.


1 month down...5 to go!