The Lost Children

The Felt Child- Half of the world's population is CHILDREN
The Soldier- is representative of the 300,000 children actively fighting in wars
The Bandaid- represents the 35,000 children who die each day from preventable diseases
Party Popper- this past year, the lives of 510,000 children were extinguished by AIDS (ages 0-14)
The Spoon- is symbolic of the 200 million children under 15 years of age who suffer from chronic hunger
The Foam Letter- speak for the 121 million primary school aged children who are not attending school
The Coin- is the 674 million children that live in absolute poverty
The Heart- represent the 1.2million children being trafficked into the sex trade annually
The Bottle- each year, 3.3million babies are stillborn, 4 million die within 28 days of being born and a further 6.6million children die before their 5th birthday

The Cross- represents the hope and love of Jesus

Another Wonderful Week.

"Have I not told you? Be strong and courageous; do not be afraid or dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go." (Joshua 1)

Last week started with God leading me to read the book of Joshua. I read the verse above and thought, "yeah I know this, I've read this like a million times. Of course I know this." Little did I realise that this verse would be the theme of my week in which God was just adding a little bit more to the bigger picture of knowing more about who He is.

To put it in short, I need to be constantly reminded about who God is and how much He just wants to pour out His goodness and love to me everyday of my life. Since being here, I've been encouraged by friends here and other random people that God sees me as someone as strong and courageous- basically everything I don't see myself as. I'm scared of everything. Timid and inferior. One day, a friend came up to me and said, "God wanted me to tell you that you shouldn't limit yourself as that means you limit Him. Don't put Him in a box." It took me a while for that to sink in, and when it did, I just realised that God was again taking the first step to reach out to me. Just thinking about that and His death on the cross made me realise how much He risked to reach out to me.

I was gutted. I don't ever believe that I can be used in a mighty way and I lack much confidence. But here was God just telling me through people showing me His faithfulness and reminding me about His love. I was bursting with tears in class on thursday just thinking about the cross that I just couldn't contain as I felt God saying to me, "This is my love for You. Though you don't believe in me, I've put you on random people's minds to try and tell you that I love you." I walked back to my room after I had calmed down and I just stood there and a friend asked if I was okay. I looked up, paused and then replied still trying to figure things out in my mind, "God is just...awesome. I don't deserve it.." and all of a sudden I just fell to the floor and burst out in tears that I just couldnt control. I didn't really know what was happening but all I knew was that I was just experiencing God's love which was just cutting me to the heart in a way that was just so strong that I had to lie down.

I felt so stupid for saying that I want to know God and that I understand Him and what Jesus had done for me. But I think we all need to be constantly reminded that it's not just about what we know or what we say, but we need the revelations from God that keep us going. Every week I'm going through a cycle of trying not to be selfish and give God everything. It's so painful and it seems lame to even do something you don't normally do but I've come to find that just being bold and doing something God wants you to do, even though you would never do it, feels awesome once you've obeyed. But I'm beginning to realise that that's exactly what life with God is all about. Just relying on Him and not myself. I've done things that I never thought I could do or would never think twice about doing. For example, I had to give a talk about God's love this week and I had no idea what I was going to say till I was there at that moment talking. I was nervous, terrified and I'm not a public speaker at all. However, I was saying things I had never thought about and I could really just feel God speaking through me. It was amazing.

So yeah, learning lots about just trusting God even though in my little mind can't comprehend how things could work out. And it feels good cos I'm working through living up to a potential I thought I never could achieve but all things are possible through Him.

We're never meant to walk this life alone, to strive for something great for ourselves. It's humanly impossible to a live a life that God wants us to live. Which is why we're supposed to ask Him for help. He made the universe, I'm certain He will see me through.

One life to live. I'm not gonna live it in my little bubble. Life is too short to live for things that will pass away.




Oh and the week ended with a weekend full of free cotton candy making the beach and just awesome YWAM family bonding. I love how even though all my friends here are from everywhere, we still get along well and when there is tension, we talk it out, we try to love each other. Genuine relationships built on a strong foundation bonded by God's love for all of us - it will never be broken.

"Oh, you so holy"

Holiness is another word in the pool of Christian jargon.

Do we actually know what it means?

When we see people going to church, praying or just talking about God, we tend to say to them, "Ooo, you so holy" Or even as Christians, when we do lotsa "good stuff" and go to church and things that we like to think of ourselves as "being a good Christian" and therefore being holy in these acts. However, holiness to us often seems completely unachievable and way too out of our reach as we're human and bla bla bla.

Holiness is knowing God and His truths and living in what has already been revealed to you. If we truly know who God is- even if we know just a little about Him (cos we'll never know enough of who He is) and if that truly renews our mind, that is holiness. We're all holy if we choose to want to know Him. So you may say that being Holy is only for "strong/super christians" and not for me, I'm just fine where I am. You're wrong. Cos you are called to be holy. It's the very nature of who we are. We were created to know God. to be searching for something more, to love, to feel, etc. The ability to know Him is already given to us.

You're closer to God than you think. You're made in His image. You already have godly attributes.

You are His child.

God loves you this much

In the beginning, God. [Genesis 1:1]

Before the world was created, you. [Ephesians 1:4-6]

The world was created for you.

God intended for us to have a perfect relationship with Him, for you.

We have free will (No, we're not robots) and therefore have choice to love and know Him in return. A risk He wanted to take, for you.

He made you in His image. [Genesis 1:27] We all have God-given gifts that portray who He is. E.g. Relationship, Environmental responsibility, Marriage, Children, Education, Health, Home, Work, Creativity, Rest, etc. [1 Corinthians 12 + 14]

We chose to live for ourselves and rejected Him, but God still sent His only Son to die for us. [Romans 5:8]

God is love. He loves you. No matter what.


There is so much to God that I don't know. I've only really got a drop of the ocean of the fullness of God. But I've come to see that God is a good God. So often, I and a lot of people have a distorted view of God. We see Him as a God who just wants to punish and condemn us for the sin in our lives and therefore, He is a God of Law and rules. But if we see Him in this way, we've completely missed the idea of who He really is. God never wanted to see us go through pain, to suffer, to go through death. Before the world began, he chose you and me to be His children. To have a complete relationship full of goodness and love that you and I could not imagine. But we have the freedom to decide. To make our own choices. That is love. When you love someone, you risk being rejected.

We have a God who loves us. A love that cannot separate us from Him. You may not love Him back. But know that even though you don't, He sees you as precious.



I love God and I love people. But there will be countless times where I'll mess up and someone would point that out but that won't stop me from not loving Him or not reaching out to people. We make mistakes, but we learn from them. I'm sorry for the way I distorted your view of God in the past. I'm sorry for not portraying God's nature and character. I want to make a change. I will make a change.

What is the best way of communication? Love. God is love.

1 Corinthians 13

"1 If I speak with human eloquence and angelic ecstasy but don't love, I'm nothing but the creaking of a rusty gate. 2If I speak God's Word with power, revealing all his mysteries and making everything plain as day, and if I have faith that says to a mountain, "Jump," and it jumps, but I don't love, I'm nothing. 3-7If I give everything I own to the poor and even go to the stake to be burned as a martyr, but I don't love, I've gotten nowhere. So, no matter what I say, what I believe, and what I do, I'm bankrupt without love.

Love never gives up.
Love cares more for others than for self.
Love doesn't want what it doesn't have.
Love doesn't strut,
Doesn't have a swelled head,
Doesn't force itself on others,
Isn't always "me first,"
Doesn't fly off the handle,
Doesn't keep score of the sins of others,
Doesn't revel when others grovel,
Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth,
Puts up with anything,
Trusts God always,
Always looks for the best,
Never looks back,
But keeps going to the end.

8-10Love never dies. Inspired speech will be over some day; praying in tongues will end; understanding will reach its limit. We know only a portion of the truth, and what we say about God is always incomplete. But when the Complete arrives, our incompletes will be canceled.

11When I was an infant at my mother's breast, I gurgled and cooed like any infant. When I grew up, I left those infant ways for good.

12We don't yet see things clearly. We're squinting in a fog, peering through a mist. But it won't be long before the weather clears and the sun shines bright! We'll see it all then, see it all as clearly as God sees us, knowing him directly just as he knows us!

13But for right now, until that completeness, we have three things to do to lead us toward that consummation: Trust steadily in God, hope unswervingly, love extravagantly. And the best of the three is love."

Before I sleep...I thought I'd rhyme.

I haven't posted anything in a while so I thought I update y'all on what's going on here on base down under...

Full house in the dorm,
2 more nations represent,
We're all still tight,
Getting louder by the night.

It's been busy, it's been trying,
Sometimes I feel like dying,
Not really, that was a little OTT
But everyday's a challenge in breaking me.

In my sorrow, I rejoice
Instead of sulking- that's my choice.
God is love, that's all I need.
No really, That is really all I need.

It's weird how you know things,
Just in your head,
But when something cool/bad happens,
You acknowledge how real God really is and that's just the coolest feeling in the world!

Okay that last verse didn't rhyme,
But my vocab sucks especially at this time,
It's late and it's gonna be busy this week
So I'm nearing the end of my geek streak.

Thus to sum up the past few days,
Well there is so much to say,
But what I really learned was
How to battle each moment by taking a pause,
In between your decisions that you're going to make,
Cos when you choose to make
A choice that goes opposite what you usually do,
It actually works best for me and those around too.



Okay, I just wanna also shout out all the amazing things happened in the past week, thanks to God:
1. I unexpectedly got back the exact amount of cash that I donated 2 weeks ago from a wonderful someone. I thought it was pretty awesome cos I was a little unsure as to whether I was supposed to donate that much. But now, I have as much as I had before! So Yay for a bit of money for mexico!

2. Told my testimony and apologized for a lotta things I did back in the day to a loved one and it went so well, I can't believe how well it went! Firstly, I knew what to say and I usually don't. Secondly, that person reacted in a way totally opposite to what I thought. So thanks to God for the confidence and words to say (Proverbs3) and the people who prayed for me.

3. Felt pretty much on the down low a couple of times but whenever I felt a certain way, God would send random people to tell me what I really needed to hear at the right times and therefore, I made better choices and ended up on a high rather than a lower low.


1 month down...5 to go!